lies

Most people don't know who they are
that's why they lie.

They are afraid people might find out who they are

before they find out themselves.

No music today folks

I miss you, lets be sad

I wanted to make sure that you'd remember what really matters to me,

because sometimes little things get in the way and you find out someone

doesn't know you love them, and sometimes-

time lets people forget.

The way life moves- everybody changes.  The things you love,

the things you want to remember just pass you by

and people just fade away.

"Morning smiles like the face of a newborn child,

innocent unknowing.

Winters end, promises of a long lost friend,

speaks to me of comfort.

But I fear-

I have nothing to give.

I have so much to loose here in this lonely place-

tangled up in your embrace.

There's nothing I'd like better than to fall.

But I fear-

 I have nothing to give."

I'm lost

I tell myself to be happy but I don't feel happy. And when I try to change it,

when I try to remember what being happy felt like, I can't.

I don't feel joy, I don't feel inspired .

I just feel numb.

This past week defeted me.

I didn't stand a chance against it.

Happy Haloween

I wasn't sure how I'd feel.

I never really expected it to feel this way-

A giant hand is tearing my heart, and I'm afraid.

Is my happiness buried beneath my harried life, or will

I never be pleased?

Am I abandoning myself because I am hurt and afraid of being unloved, or is this truly who I am?

When I walked away full of sadness for what could have been, I thought to myself.....

I'll never stop silently loving those I've once loved out loud!! 

But Is that OKAY?

pick me

I'd give you the stars and the ocean , if they were mine to give.

I'd give you everything I have if I thought that you wanted it.

And I'd make the trees grow taller, every good song louder, and the moon a little fuller

if I thought I could.

But what I can give you forever is all my love, all my memories, and my hand.

I love you

blissful

Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life that you expect it to always be there.....

because you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't. 

But then one day, you feel something else-

something that seems so wrong, only because it seems so unfamilliar.

And in that moment you realize

You're HAPPY!!

"Tangled in hotel sheets

you wore me out"



blue eyes

Sing Me Sweet