lies

Most people don't know who they are
that's why they lie.

They are afraid people might find out who they are

before they find out themselves.

No music today folks

I miss you, lets be sad

I wanted to make sure that you'd remember what really matters to me,

because sometimes little things get in the way and you find out someone

doesn't know you love them, and sometimes-

time lets people forget.

The way life moves- everybody changes.  The things you love,

the things you want to remember just pass you by

and people just fade away.

"Morning smiles like the face of a newborn child,

innocent unknowing.

Winters end, promises of a long lost friend,

speaks to me of comfort.

But I fear-

I have nothing to give.

I have so much to loose here in this lonely place-

tangled up in your embrace.

There's nothing I'd like better than to fall.

But I fear-

 I have nothing to give."

I'm lost

I tell myself to be happy but I don't feel happy. And when I try to change it,

when I try to remember what being happy felt like, I can't.

I don't feel joy, I don't feel inspired .

I just feel numb.

This past week defeted me.

I didn't stand a chance against it.